Glimpsing

Dots connect between the struggles, hostilities and plights of the outer world experienced, and the ‘inner’ conflicts experienced in & as the conflicting thoughts and asymmetries of one’s own mind.

With a calmer, practiced mind, direct experience is inspected. Validation of what the seeker has heard from teachers & learned from teachings begins to be seen, glimpsed ever so slightly, first hand.

As discord is discovered & aligned in the ‘inner world’, new perspectives & ways of being, living, and relating to the ‘outer world’ and others are refreshingly experienced.

The ever-increasing feeling of alignment is questioned to be the ‘substance’ in & of itself, of confirmation, as alignment is suspected to be, by how it feels - the ‘real’, the undeniable visceral & intrinsic validation of the practice, thus validating what the teachers can never speak, but are all pointing to.

This is a joyful and promising stage on the path, as the glimpse of this new way resonates intuitively with the very calling by which the seeking, practice and search originated.

Peaks of empowerment & inspiration begin to arise, as the reactionary and discordant thoughts, behaviors & actions begin to be illuminated, and more clearly seen, and thus, no longer fed attention in the same manor as they once were.

Reactionary actions & behavior begin to acquiesce as grace is glimpsed; as one learns to take pause; and then.

Dots connect between suffering, conditioning, limiting beliefs, reactionary living, collective paradigms, judgement, beliefs in lack, shortage, unworthiness, powerlessness, un-deservedness… and one’s actions which are in contradiction to one’s desire - the living of the life which is the dream within to be manifest & experienced ‘in the flesh’.

The significance of this with respect to the world, with creation at large, remains veiled by self referential and subject-object thoughts.

Desire is acknowledged, yet clarity as to the truth of desire remains obscured - by the very activity of thought.

Doubt is experienced & recognized as discordant, yet is not fully understood as to why that is. Whereas it seemed before there was persistent suffering, now it seems suffering is intermittent. Why this is experientially so remains a mystery.

Deflection & projection, yet to be fully expressed, inspected & dispelled persists, and the practice is adhered to, and abandoned, adhered to, and abandoned, adhered to, and abandoned.

The relevance of the inspection of self referential & subject-object thoughts is unappreciated & un-applied - and the practice is adhered to, and abandoned, adhered to, and abandoned, adhered to, and abandoned.

Catching

Now aware of the significance of direct experience, and the physiological benefits & feeling of alignment from the practice and inspection, a new glimpse is seen - that of the truly radical magnitude and apparent depth of conditioning.

One is becoming more acutely aware of patterns of craving, clinging & averting, and of reaction & suppression, which have thus far been unknowingly at the helm of one’s life - living as if only a gear within a greater clock that is the universe.

Countless questions arise as the mind is both brightened by, and confronted, confused, & confounded by these discoveries.

Here diligence to the practice, mindfulness, and ‘remaining’ present, are realized to be of greater & greater ineffable significance.

This can be a most difficult stage, as conditioning which had been unknowingly and innocently adopted & suppressed is more fully coming to light, arising analogous to a meal which didn’t taste good in the first place & never settled, which is now coming up & out to be released - it doesn’t taste any better coming up and emptying out than it did going down. Yet, this is the way.

… and the practice is adhered to, and abandoned, adhered to, and abandoned, adhered to, and abandoned.

Expression is discovered to be most key, as reactionary causal living & existence has begun to be seen as not really ‘awake’, or as any real quality of living at all. Much anger & rage can arise; an outlet of expression is key as logic and reason will no longer do.

Motive, that is, the projection of the very feeling sought, onto others, things & future outcomes, begins to be seen as surface level living, an unsatisfying inspirationally hollow facade. Old thought patterns & beliefs, still arising, are met with mindfulness as more of the shadow of old is brought into the newly allowed light of awareness.

Animalistic reactive aggressions are now felt with more intensity & sensitivity, as they inevitably come ‘up & out’. The trap of aversion from the practice itself is stronger than ever, as the deep and seemingly sophisticated belief in causation begins to empty; to come up, and out. The futility of resistance to expression & release is not yet seen with clarity.

‘Energy’, and ‘relaxation’, are seen to be mere concepts in the old paradigm, as the feeling-realization of the actuality to which these words point has begun.

Though every one can, very few make it this far on the path; far fewer continue.

… and the practice is adhered to, and abandoned, adhered to, and abandoned, adhered to, and abandoned.

Patience, deeper relaxation within, stillness of mind & equanimity of emotion become respectfully realized as the self-evident curative way of being, as much discord and bodily contraction empties.

True humility is glimpsed, felt, and understood to be ineffable & incommunicable. Only the direct of communion will do. One see’s one is in the passenger seat, and has deeply been believing one is in the driver’s seat.

Well being in general is brought into question, as the light of awareness shines on one’s choices in regard to diet, health, relationships, and discordant & aligned thoughts focused upon.

Taming

As the practiced mind calms & clears, the body undergoes an emptying of suppression, as it relates to emotion and dualistic misinterpretations.

Via the practice - stillness & the way of non is grasped, such as non-engagement, non-judgement, non-reaction, non-focus and non-violence.

The ‘cup’ continues to empty such that empathy, understanding, and true compassion & wisdom now have a space to arise within and fill. The tiniest of glimpses of the truth of the Fullness and Wholeness of emptiness are directly experienced, while the actuality of infinity still remains veiled.

This stage calls for continued diligence & patience, healing and forgiveness of self & others.

As expression continues, the mind empties of beliefs, dualistic thought habit, over-activity, and the rumination of self referential & subject-object thoughts; thus allowing patience & the spaciousness which is the actuality of self-soothing, self-acceptance, self-forgiveness, self-reliance and self-love.

Most tempting it is here to help others, to teach, to preach, to advise…

… and the practice is adhered to, and abandoned, adhered to, and abandoned, adhered to, and abandoned.

That one can not ‘do it all one’s self’ is realized. That is, sayings of surrender like ‘give it to God’, and the ‘power of letting go’ are more deeply resonating & appreciated and mindfully & swiftly employed.

Conscious-feeling-response, rather than unconscious-mental-reaction, intrinsically arises and is enjoyed as it is more & more naturally pronounced.

This is first true hint, of the Truth & True Nature.

While unthinkable, unbelievable, and ineffable; This is unmistakable, inherently by how This feels.

The practiced, emptied, opened & expanded mind, in conjunction with the ‘emptied’ body, are now more naturally - effortlessly - culminating as a new clarity and a more single pointed focus, aligned with & attentive to the mind’s ‘higher’ guidance, ‘it’s very ‘substance’, that to which ‘feeling’ points.

So wonderful and unbelievable it is, that the happening is claimed… as obtained & attained.

…and the practice is adhered to, and abandoned, adhered to, and abandoned, adhered to, and abandoned.

In this natural & intrinsic alignment arises renewal, depth, acuity and heightened perception & sensitivity of sensation.

The reality of ever-present guidance in far less intermittent, as is the suffering of focusing upon discord.

Real change occurs in regard to non-dwelling, non-complaining, non-venting, and non-judgement; as the taste & actuality of true freedom is now firmly glimpsed to be - much more than a series of fleeting glimpses.

Swiftness of ability to shift focus in accordance with feeling-guidance becomes the Way & the paramount order of every day.

Often, this is a time of introspection, reflection, deeper acceptance & forgiveness, and care for any lingering discord in matters of relationships with others, as the actuality of communion with source is soon to be realized as universe-wide; infinite.

The reality of universal harmony and correlations with presence, focus & creatorship become clearer. The Immutable Laws are examined and now begin to ring true. Much pain is transmutated as much beauty, unification and purification are underway, soon to be seen for what they really are, and aren’t.

Riding Home

Here the practice, introspection & inspection of direct experience, expression and allowing & receiving of emotional guidance coalesce as focus upon what is wanted.

All that is begins to coalesce; dualities collapse.
A relaxed body-mind becomes the norm.

Ease of being is more actual & more real.

The seeker still longs for explanation for this greatness; longs for understanding - yet to inspect self referential & subject-object thoughts to their completion…

…and the practice is adhered to, and abandoned, adhered to, and abandoned, adhered to, and abandoned.

Confirmation of the words of mystics is glimpsed first hand in direct experience. The fruits of dedication to the practice and the willingness of earnest expression now fully ripen and become the effortless norm.

Joy is manifest. Happiness is real.

Experience is no longer veiled by the facade of black & white thought activity; one is not moved by causation nor internal conflicts & polarities, and the notion of oneness, the mystery that is, begins to deeply & intuitively resound and resonate.

The actuality and nonduality of trust in the universe is realized with clarity, as all which does not serve is swiftly released & and all which does is received in non-attachment, natural joy & appreciation, and in effortless equanimity.

The mind, ever-expanding, tastes the true nature & creativity of its source, and has unmistakably ‘returned’ Home. Aligned & abiding in, of, and as nonlocalized-presence, the mind is naturally focused and free of resistance.

Childlike fun & lightheartedness has ‘returned’ to stay.

Glimpses become incredibly deep, and are no longer intermittent, but readily accessible and never so far as to be out of reach of the peaceful mind, filled each day with insights.

Awareness is realized to be non-local; ‘filling the room’.

Miraculous, delightful, unthinkable actuality.

Transcending Other

Home. The Great Relief, The Great Rest.

Dissipation, abidance of being, true embodiment of compassion.

Notions of harming, hurting, outsmarting, righteousness, manipulation, pride, arrogance, vanity of the body or mind, the need to understand or be understood, to validate or seek validation no longer arise; they came with forgetting the ox; they left with remembering the ox. Ineffable freedom never left. Emotion & intuition guides; far superior than did the activity of thought.

For all of the seeker’s diligence, inner battles & relinquishments, trials & tribulations; nothing was lost, nothing is gained, and nothing is realized.

Transcending Self-And-Other

Nothing remains; self, no self, other, no other, world, no world, body, no body, mind, no mind, negation, non-negation, phenomena, non-phenomena; nothing remains.

Wisdom, ignorance, seeking, finding, seeing, hearing, smelling, touching, breathing, knowledge, understanding, awareness, consciousness, infinite, finite, formless, form, universe, non-universe, Truth, The True Nature; all notions are dispelled by direct experience; being.

Nothing is perfection; perfection is nothing.

Walking for the first time, seeing for the first time, hearing for the first time, feeling for the first time, breathing for the first time, speaking for the first time, knowing for the first time, understanding for the first time; never walking, never seeing, never hearing, never feeling, never breathing, never speaking, never knowing, never understanding.

Distinctions of conceptual vs direct experience, idea vs actuality, path vs not path; having gone full circle have all joyfully collapsed - never having truly occurred, as what is illusory is clearly seen from what is real.

The bottom of the bucket has fallen away; discord & suffering are short lived if at all, falling through the ‘bucket’ without resistance. Compassion ever-arises & fills, pouring out & through the emptied vessel, where conditioning once dwelt.

Presence is intrinsically spontaneous creativity. Life is an unthinkable impossible miraculous wonder to behold.

A Bodhisattva see’s the world for the first time; as the absence of Bodhisattva & world.

Source

Absolute. Unconditional.

The tongue can not taste the tongue, the eye can not see the eye, the ear can not hear the ear, the finger can not point to the finger.

A knower is unknown, the striver was the strife, understanding is misunderstanding. Ignorance, confusion & suffering seemed to happen.

Mystery dispelled; mystery revealed.

Returning

Unconditionally empty handed; ordinary, unexceptional wakefulness.

Creator-Creating-Creation; Ineffable Magic.

Home & Unorphaned.

Finally, the first step on the path has occurred.