The Spheres:
What is feeling?
Ultimately, ‘feeling’ is undefinable & ineffable, as all thoughts, definitions, knowings, understandings, insights, wisdom and ‘pointings’ to ‘feeling’, are truly only thoughts, conditions, conceptualizations of.
Recognizing & with respect to the dualistic apparent limitation of thought and therein of language in this regard, what is the ‘best’ pointing, to ‘feeling’?
Unconditional love.
If reality is me, and I am unconditional love - why don’t I feel it? Why don’t I feel like I am unconditional love?
Being is obscured by the apparent activity of thinking. Self inquire as to the feeling of being me. Question the thought “I”, which is said to be separate of, and therein implied to not be, feeling.
(See Self Inquiry, Self Referential Thoughts & Subject-Object Thoughts)
That’s crazy. That’s such a crazy thing to say. People are going to think you’re crazy.
The conceptualization of unconditional love is collective conditioning and is the root of all mental illness, bodily dis-ease and worldly conflict.
As Jesus said, “forgive them, for they know not what they do”.
(See video There is No Thinker of Thoughts, and The Emotional Scale)
That’s crazy! If this “pointing” is to what is actual, to truth - again, why don’t I feel it? It seems like if I am UNCONDITIONAL love, then certainly, I would feel like - unconditional love! What gives? Can you ‘point’ as simply and as straightforward as possible?
It’s the vibrationally appearing as “experience” or “creation” (being the two spheres) ‘factor’ which is, so to speak, tripping you up. Feeling what reality is thought to be is feeling thoughts. Feeling is (itself) already… feeling.
(See Videos: Actuality of Being, How You Create Your Reality Part 1, How You Create Your Reality Part 2: Emotion & Creator Creating Creation, and How You Create Your Reality Part 3: Relationships, Communion & The Dreamboard)
How so?
This is what is meant by ‘being on the path’, (vs conceptualizing the path). Spirituality is the investigation of what is true, actual, ineffable, undefinable, incommunicable, unthinkable, unbelievable, and eternally unchanging under any & all circumstances - absolute.
When belief is inspected belief is dispelled, and only what is actual, absolute & unchanging, that which ‘The Truth’ points to, remains.
(See Meditation and Self Inquiry)
But if all there is, is unconditional love - it only makes sense that if this were true, I would only be feeling unconditional love.
You are not per say feeling unconditional love, you are already infinite unconditional love.
Unconditional love is appearing as the two spheres. The implied twoness, or, duality, of there being a “me” and unconditional love, is a thought, which you, unconditional love, are appearing as.
The path is backwards (in a sense). ‘Go’ prior to thoughts, prior to beliefs about yourself. Prior to the belief you were born.
Apparent words, language & communication imply there is a ‘you’, a ‘separate self’, an ‘individual’, a ‘knower of’, an ‘understander of’. An intellectual intellectualizing, a knower knowing, an understander understanding… is illusory. An illusion, in truth, never actually happened. That is what an illusion is.
That you were born, or that any ‘thing’ has actually ever ‘happened at all’, sans, you, infinite unconditional love, vibrationally appearing as the two spheres - are thoughts & beliefs. Essentially, beliefs that you are a ‘thing’ or an ‘object’, something other than, infinite unconditional love.
(See Going Prior and I am)
So, the ‘path’ is seeing past the relative, the knowing, the understanding… and then feeling - the absolute?
You are already prior to.
Enlightenment is, yet no one ‘becomes’ enlightened. Awakening is, yet no one awakens or is awake. Without beliefs to the contrary, enlightenment, unconditional love, is what is already actual and unmistakably radiant.
Consider this analogy…
The sun is always illuminated, shining brightly. Yet as clouds roll in, it can seem as if the sun is not shining as brightly. The clouds are like thought believed which obscure the light. Of this obscuring, the sun believes there is, a sun which is being obscured by clouds.
(See video: What is a Referential Thought)
This can be likened to a tablet and wifi. Though the wifi is unseen, unheard, and untouched, the wifi is nevertheless, present.
Wifi, which appears as a tablet, would therein also appear as the processor and computations of the tablet. This ‘processing’ is essentially, one’s and zero’s, apparent duality - the activity of thinking, which is inherently, and apparently, dualistic.
The tablet, which is only a vibrational appearance of the wifi, veils the wifi from the fact that it is the wifi, by believing the computations, which are the dualistic one’s and zero’s, which is the appearance of, the wifi. It is not “the tablet” which is ‘veiled’ by the ‘processing’, and thus is is not ‘the tablet’ which ‘becomes enlightened’ or ‘awakens’.
Only in the cessation of these ‘computations’, and the end of the wifi believing therein that it is a tablet, is it clear that all tablets & computations (thoughts) come & go, and in truth, there are no tablets, processors nor computations. There is only the wifi, which appears.
The ‘computations’ could be ‘my wifi’, ‘my emotions’, ‘my love’, or ‘absolute love’ & ‘relative love’, or even ‘my computations’ (‘my’ thoughts). All of these computations would be apparent, as they are no more than the appearance of, the wifi.
Again, the “tablet” could not and would never realize this, as the tablet is a vibrational appearance, and not a ‘thing’ which ‘realizes’. Only the wifi is the wifi, and no computation is needed for the wifi to be - the wifi.
More computations thus would not, and could not, in regard to wifi-recognition, ‘do’ what “the tablets” allowing of the settling of the activity of computations, could ‘do’. Only the wifi allowing the activity of computing & believing to settle, and realizing that the wifi is wifi, will ‘do’.